Okay so I did miss a day, tsk tsk! shame on me! Well here goes.
Today while talking to a really good friend, I explained to her why I had decided to even start blogging and even more importantly why this all of a sudden quest for "true personal happiness"
You like how I put that in quotes right? Well for years and years I have been on the search literally the search (flashlight in the daytime) for a mate, my man, my boo, my soulmate. Never did I ever even consider the reason why this person was so far away was because I had no idea what the hell made me happy. I knew that I could experience happiness, laughing, having a good time and etc. But true unadulterated happiness, to the core, unshaken, unmovable happiness, nope nope and nope. I had not even explored the tip of the iceberg, let alone what was beneath the surface. I was so delusional because in reality happiness should not be attached to someone or something. Both can be taken in an instance and there goes your happiness. I feel like there is a deeper meaning to everything. ESPECIALLY HAPPINESS
So I pondered this further today.
What makes me happy???? Truly what makes me happy? The first thing that popped in my mind was having a lifetime supply of Bounty paper towel, toilet paper and cleaning supplies in my house. (I am shaking my head at myself) ... But nonetheless, even in pondering this, my mind quickly ran to this notion, "well what will so and so think if I do this or that!" BOOOONNNGGG! Wrong answer! its my happiness, who cares what they think. IT'S MY HAPPINESS. So that's where I am today. To truly make me happy, and dont care about what the next person thinks.
Just think about how we look at people who base or bungee jump, walk on fire and jump out of planes. We say "they are crazy" but what if that makes them happy? How is this our business and who are we to judge? So I challenge you to write a list of what makes you happy, I did. If you feel like you are having a bad day, a bad moment, or whatever distracts you, refer back to your list. It can become your mantra. I really believe that if we spent more time concentrating on our own personal happiness the balance in our life would even out on its own. And we can all do better so for all you self righteous people out there im kicking over your soap box.
LOVE YA
xo
